BushH8er182’s Journal:

[mood: contemplative]

[music: good charlotte – “the world is black”]

I haven’t updated in a while, but things have been real crazy. Fuck everybody else. I can’t deal with the world and all of everybody’s hypocritical bullshit. Sometimes I just want to crawl into a hole and ignore the world. So that’s what I did. But then those jock assholes had to come and find me. Now I’m sitting here in this prison cell. Alone. As usual. ::sigh::

[mood: pensive]

[music: linkin park – “in the end”]

Linkin Park is amazing. Well, at least their old stuff. They totally sold out, and now they suck, but this song captures me so well right now. I don’t understand how I got here. How, suddenly, I get on everyone's bad side. I have no place anymore. I feel shitty, real shitty. To be tossed away at the final stretch, stranded on third. I still don't understand it all. I doubt I ever will. Once good friends, now not wanting at all to be around me. I'm the outcast, the reject. And there is nothing I did to cause this and nothing I can do to reverse it. I go to court next week. Wish me luck. Heh, I’m asking for luck, but nobody’s going to read this anyway. No one ever leaves comments for me.

[mood: proud]

[music: new found glory – “3rd and long”]

Went to court today. I don’t know why I even bother. Nobody ever listens when I’m talking. The judge wouldn’t even call me the president of Iraq, even when I told him that I was never formally deposed. Fuck him. Fuck everybody. Who needs these assholes? I’ll show them all. They’re all just a bunch of dumb jocks anyway. They only care about what Bush and the rest of the U.S. is going to think about them. I don’t need their approval. I hate this town. I’ll show everyone.

[mood: betrayed]

[music: limp bizkit – “break stuff”]

Republican Guard my ass. Those assholes cut and ran as soon as Bush and his “cool” friends rolled into town. Like this other day, I was at the mall, and I saw one of my senior Generals and he was walking with L. Paul Bremer and he pretended like he didn’t even know me. I guess now is the time when I find out who my real friends are.

[mood: optimistic]

[music: christina aguilera – “beautiful”]

I feel like a storm has passed. I figured it all out. I’m just going to ignore them from now on. They can play their childish games all they want. I’m not even going to recognize their charges. Bush is such a holier than thou hypocrite. I wonder if he reads this. If you do, fuck you, Bush. You’re an asshole. I don’t care what you think of me. I’m not going to let you ruin my life anymore.

[mood: melancholy]

[music: fall out boy – “get busy living or get busy dying”]

I want: a warm chocolate chip cookie.

I have: bad lawyers.

I wish: I was really as tough as they say I am.

I love: brutally murdering Kurdish people. Lolz.

I hate: mean, stupid, selfish people and that jock asshole Bush.

I miss: Uday and my harem.

I fear: clowns.

I feel: lonely and like my friends ditched me.

I hear: the desperate screams of the Olympic soccer team, in my fondest memories.

I smell: as bad as my beard looks.

I crave: the comfort of my spider hole.

I wonder: if anyone cares about me anymore. ::sigh::

I regret: signing that agreement with the CIA that made me president.

[mood: emo]

[music: bobby mcferrin – “don’t worry be

happy”]

Some mornings I wake up and I just want to die. I didn’t even change out of my pajamas to go to court today. ::sigh:: I don’t even want to try anymore.